Alone and lonely

One major thing has happened in my life. I graduated university. I dont want to talk about it now. People who are in my friendlist in Orkut, they can see the pics, and the others its just too bad. I aint gonna share it with non-friends:P
Anyways. Im alone and lonely. Hes gone out, again with his friends. And you have no idea how jealous I am. Coz He always has something to talk with them and to be honest He has soooo many of them. And on those rare moments of brutal honesty, he has told me that he really doesnt give a fuck about 90% of those, that they are just people He spends his time with. Then what about me? Guess Im not fun to be around anymore. Although things are going normal now. Like we are like all those couples who are married for years. The same old routine every single day.
We dont do fun things anymore. We hardly ever go anywhere. We just stay at home and I know that he is far to lazy and comfortable to go out just for a walk or something...
But I dont want to be like that, just sit at home, beside eachother but not really with eachother. Its just when I think about him spending almost every other evening with his friends, while Im home alone...like today...I feel abandoned....coz He hardly ever puts some effort into doing something with me. Im here, we are married, Im here to stay...so I think he has started to take me for granted if he doesnt do that already.
But this just makes me incredibly sad to see his face lighten up when He goes out with his friends like Yeaaaah...finally I get outta here to do something interesting...while all day he has just been a couch-potato, watchin fword and me here going on and on about doing something together.....

P.S. and I still dont understand why I cant be taken with when he goes out with his friends. And the other thing...he has no picture of me or us whatsoever in his Orkut account. Like I dont exist in his life....at least it makes me feel like that....or he is ashamed to be married with me or he wants people to think that he is not married......oooops...I think overactive imagination on the run here so I better stop:P

Its all over.....

Thank heavens its all over now.. I have done all my exams, but it didnt come without shocks. In the beginning of this week I was told that I might not graduate this year. Its really along story, but all is well that ends well :)
I discovered a good channel to watch from Justins Tv. The web address is www.justin.tv and the channel is fword. Yes, you are right, Gordon Ramsey and his Hell's Kitchen, Kitchen Nightmares and Fword....I really enjoy watching it, its really funny. Give it a try, and if you dont like it, try some other channel, theres plenty there...