So here is the day when I can say Im now officially older than a quarter of a century. Today is my 26th birthday. And I have spent it alone. Except when I went out to buy some sugar and coffee.
I remember, I used to wait for my birthdays so much when i was younger. It was always such a waiting. But not anymore. Nobody really wants to get older. Especially when you feel that you havent really achieved much in those years passed. I know I should feel happy but I dont when I got the news that one of my best friend has moved into a house of her own with her lovely family. I felt miserable. And the fact that I felt like that because of some really great news, that made me feel even worse. I feel that everybody elses life is going somewhere but mine is standing still, like it has grown roots. Everybody around me seems to have kids, buy houses, get married and that pisses me off without a reason, really. My life has been slowing down and taking a complete halt. And it all began approximately 2 years ago when my family life collapsed. Since that time, I can tell that much water has flown into the sea, but I still have that feeling of uneasiness about the future.
