Things have become more stabile for me. He even said that He missed me. I want so much to believe him. He doesnt want to talk about the problem issues with me over the phone. In a way I dont want that either but there are just tooo many questions that need to be answered. Since I have waited for so long, the last one week doesnt matter anymore. Next week same time + one hour, he will be back home.
We really need to sit down and discuss everything. I doubt that we are going to do that in the same evening, but the next day is reserved for that sit-down. We need to be calm and talk everything throught how things are going to be in the future, because the way they were before....it cant continue like that. Maybe he wishes it to be so, but this was just ridiculous from my point of view and I dont think She would be happy too...but to look the truth in the eye, this all before...it was really comfy for him. But this has to end. He has to choose.
I saw a weird dream last night. I have been sleeping bad last few night...i have been having my night-thingys again...no wonder.
I saw my good friend from USA, sadly we dont talk anymore....anyways. I saw him in my dreams and he was having a woman there...and weird thing about it was that she was Estonian, like me...although I was the first estonian he had ever met..not exactly met coz we never saw face to face...
But it surely was weird, because all the dreams that I have ever had about him and his life have been weird...and with...complex meaning... Maybe I saw him because at times I miss talking with him a lot. I remember that once, before even knowing much about him and where he lives, I saw a dream about him. I saw a seaside, beach and I remember that when I was walking near water...dolphins swam along the coast so I could see them...and I also remember raising my gaze and seeing a huuuuge ferris-wheel....and when I later told him about the dream, he was amazed and said that he lives near Coney Island and theres also delphinarium next to it....
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