This sentence is actually simple and logical. But in some strange way it gives me confidence and optimism. I was walking in the city today, doing my things, while I suddenly thought about this. And its so true. Its like, every day you start the rest of your life. And its up to you how you want to see it and what you want to make out of it.
And today I dont want to talk about Him or about Her. Today I want to talk about ME. I felt something today that I havent felt for quite a while. I felt free. And I felt beautiful. You know the feeling when you exhale? The calm feeling you get. Thats how I was suddenly feeling, I felt acceptance with life. No matter what it may bring me, I felt that I can accept it. I was walking, cold wind brushing my cheeks (I love to feel the winter wind on my face and I always smell the wind to see if I can get the hint of spring out of it, but its far to early for that) and winter sun shining on me and over a long time I felt truly happy. Happy with myself.
Its weird how I seek one thing from others. I know that I look good and that Im beautiful. But I honestly tell you, that I started to feel like this recently. I have done a big transformation during the past couple of years, I feel like Im turning into a butterfly and Im coming out of my cocoon. And I really enjoy when people tell me that Im beautiful. Its not easy to explaine...well I try. The other night some strangers added me as their contacs in skype. I didnt know who they were so I had few words with them. And even though they were probably men, who had certain intentions towards me, I enjoyed when they said that my picture on my profile looked very beautiful. I have no intetions to go any further with my online talkings than just hello and bye, but I enjoyed those compliments. Like I feel that I need all the compliments now that I didnt get all those years when I didnt feel beautiful.....I dont know if it makes any sense...
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