Eat. Pray. Love.

What Im about to write here has nothing to do with this book or the movie, really, I promise. I have seen it though, and I found it somewhat inspiring...but thats about it.
I told one of my friends short while ago that I wish I was born into a wealthy family. So I could just take a year off from everything and just travel and see the world as it is. I dont mean spending my nights in the 5star hotels between silk and satin sheets. Im talking about inhaling the local life, feeling it on my skin, seeing things through my own eyes, feeling the dust of the road between my toes. And maybe then I would finally find a place where I feel peace coming over me. I know there is a place that is waiting for me to get there. That there is a place where I belong. Strangely this place here, my homeland, I dont have such feeling. Of course I have my friends and more importantly my family here, but still...maybe its just the Explorer inside of me talking right now..
Eat. Only thing that keeps you alive, as they say. I have done that too much recently. I feel that I have been shoving more down my throat that I should have. Dear Void, do you know something that would take away cravings? Does my situation of stuffing everything good I can find in my fridge and cupboard down my throat support some fancy theory of eating being a replacement for emotional and physical intimacy? I rather not think about that.
Pray. I should. I really should. But I am human which makes me lazy and comfortable. I always say to myself. I will start being good tomorrow. But unfortunately that magical tomorrow never comes. I need support in that. Someone who would just take me by the hand and tell me: Now this is how its going to be! I know, I know...living alone has made me some sort of a control freak. I cant even let someone else make me a cup of coffee because I have to go and show them where are things in my kitchen and how its done. Hopeless.
Love. Not writing about that. Full stop.

P.S. really nice reading. check this: http://livethecharmedlife.com/2010/08/100-ways-to-uncomplicate-your-life/comment-page-1/