First butterfly

Today, for the first time this year, I saw a butterfly. I was walking home from gym when I noticed something on the pavement and when I got closer, it quickly shot up, opened its wings and fluttered away. We have a saying here that your summer will be like the first butterfly you see. So that means my summer will be full of colours because it was multicoloured butterfly:) lets hope my summer has warm and light colours in it.

Laying on my sofa and looking into the sunny blue sky, I wish to believe that all my pain and suffering is finally over. But I have the feeling that its not. Maybe Im cowardly, maybe Im scared, maybe Im comfortable. Could I leave everything behind and start from the zero again? I dont know. You know, dear Void, its also so much more easier when someone does the tough decisions for you. Dont you think so? Then later you are free from responsibility and can blame someone else for making that decision and also for the consequences.
Am I truly the traveller I claim myself to be? The black sheep of the family. Or is this still life changed me into someone who cannot take a deep breath and step headfirst into the unknown. Someone who thinks about what people think of me. Me, who has always claimed not to care about the society stereotypes and rules of conduct and who has always done what my heart has told me to do. Do I even have a working heart anymore?

Hope I get some clarity after the craze at work is over. Until then...

Something good:)