Are you serious?

Yes, my dear Void. Are you?

Im sitting here with my morning coffee. Didnt sleep so well last night, I remember seeing lots of people, choirsingers, on a hillside singing our national anthem. They were all wearing some sort of uniforms, all but me, and my dad was conducting the ochestra in the front.
Anyways, lets get crackin`!

I dont mean mood-wise serious. I mean really meaning what you say to other people. Especially on those subjects that are serious (Have you noticed, I have used that word a lot recently, at least I have thought about that word alot). When people tell you something, I expect them to actually mean it. Im not saying about the silly little things, I mean the things of bigger importance, like feelings.
Am I making sense or not? Maybe its just too early in the morning. Or maybe Im just being too harsh. Or I expect too much of people, thats possible too.

I know that people can change their minds but when that change happens too quickly, that just leaves you wondering wether those big words they told you before were even true. Maybe they just said those to emphasize something or I dont know. And then they wonder why I dont believe what they say when they claim to be serious. But its really hard to take someones big words seriously when you have seen them change so quickly.

And I have to quote my grandma here who always used to say one thing when I was still a little girl, especially when I was a angry and was saying mean things to my brother: word is like a bird that flies out of your mouth and you cannot get it back in. I used to hate it when she said it because I knew deep down that its true.
And maybe thats one of the reasons I dont really say really big things without being absolutely sure that I mean them. Beacause I dont want to be the one who changes her mind, looking like a douchebag.

Because Im not.