Gravity

My dear Void, listen to this song. I believe that after this all my words that follow are completely unnecessary. This is the song that ties my feelings into one messy bundle and finishes it off with a bow.

My dear Void, have you ever had someone in your life that makes you weak in the knees, who turns all your insides into jelly? Its someone who can lift you up with one finger and bring you crashing down in a blink of an eye. Someone who you have never had any physical contact, someone you have never seen face to face yet who has unexplainable power over you.
I have felt it.

I have felt it really close, so close it burns. I thought I was over it. And when I walked away all this time ago, I actually felt some sort of a relief because somehow it had been immense burden on me. All those raging emotions, those intoxicating highs and those unbearably painful lows, it had all worn me out. I struggled to break free and a brief moment of luck, you gave me a perfect excuse. I escaped and I left you behind.

I dont know why you came back. You said that even though all this time has passed, you couldnt get me out of your head. What right do you have to come back and turn me into a mush again? I tried to be careful this time. Short whirlwind and you are gone again. Hopefully never to be seen again in my life.
Its not that I wouldnt want the thrills of the rollercoaster and the highs, Im afraid of the lows, my heart cannot bear it. I showed myself to you, who I am this time over all those years we have known eachother. Completely naked, revealed the depth of my soul to you and told you that I cannot do this, not this time.
Hope life treats you well, my kryptonite.