Lazy-Bug

Yes my Dear Void. I come here and I see that I have been incredibly lazy. Its almost 2 months since I last wrote here. And I have had one of my dear friends asking me several times that have I written anything new here? And all these times my answer has been no.

Dont get me wrong, let me explaine. Its not that I havent been wanting to and its not that my life has become so boring that its not worth mentioning. On the contrary, my life has been taking twists and turns since I last checked here and I have been waiting for the water to clear a bit so I could have better view on things. I remember I once said here that I dont want to talk about random things, things that dont have any significance to my life. I also dont want to talk about serious things that I dont know anything about.

But none of these things I think are the true reasons why I have been silent for this long. I guess its some sort of a superstition that I dont want to say some things or do some things until Im absolutely sure about them or I can predict the outcome, at least a little. So I havent been wanting to tell all my plans until things are really set and happening.

Today was a hard day for me, as well as yesterday. I handed in my resignation. You know Dear Void, today was especially hard. My boss was shocked and I was tearing up. I love what I do, the idea of it and this decision to leave didnt come easy for me. But for the sake of my future, I need to move on. I sat in her office and we talked about it and about life in general and she understood why Im going and leaving it all behind. She even said that if she was younger, she would do the same.
I finally made it home after 2,5 grueling days and Im exhausted from all these emotions. I need a rest.