Ghost from the past..

Yes, the ghost I willingly invited in, despite my conscious telling me not to but this time my curiousity won the battle. It might seem like nothing but it made me feel so strange inside, choked me for a moment and left me somehow empty and aching.

I came across photos of someone who is now with someone who used to be dear to me not so long ago. The mere sight of them together, it hurt me to my core. I know what you think Dear Void, you think its plain old jealousy. But thats when you are wrong. Im not jealous of him being happy with someone new. What is it, that makes me feel such a failure when I see someone, who used to be part of me, moving on with their lives and being happy. Is it this green monster of envy that lives in all of us and the moment you lose your grip on it, it raises its ugly head? I dont want to be with him because frankly, we didnt have much to talk about and when we broke up, the things I missed were mostly the physical attributes of him (nothing sexual) and the way he conducted himself. The way he made me feel safe and appreciated. I guess thats what I miss.
We all want to find someone who fills our hearts with joy and as much as I would want to deny it, it hurts me that he has found it before me.

And one thing more, my Dear Void, do you think Im the only one who does this. That you see a hurtful photo and you keep looking at the others aswell, instead of just closing the page, putting the photo away and leaving?