Tingling toes.

I came here today and to my surprise I discovered a draft that I wrote more than 2 years ago. I'm literally speechless. Where have all those years gone?

But to be fair, I will publish it now.

It was written on 15th December 2019. 

Good evening my Dearest Void,

It feels like coming back to an old and dear friend, sitting down, looking into their eyes, smiling and knowing deep inside me that nothing between the two of us has changed. Its the feeling of being assured of existence, that if everything in this world all of a sudden descend into an utter chaos, this will be one constant thing that would remain the same. It feel good, so damn good.

I have the toe-tingles. And I will tell you why. Its the feeling of excitement. I'm travelling in couple of days to see my family and my loved ones for Christmas in Estonia and I literally cant wait!!

So much has happened since I wrote. I know, I know, I say it every single time because its true. I cant pin point a reason why I don't come and write more often but when I do I have so much on my mind that my fingers cannot move fast enough. My mind speeds ahead and my fingers try so hard to catch up....

The past year I have been working as a teacher in one school. And the last 4 months I have been with one class. My Jays. We have had really fun times, we have had tough times. There are times (yes, Void, more than one) that I have cried. Not just few tears rolling over the cheeks but true sobbing. At work. Because of work. It has been a roller coaster, an adventure, not knowing where we started and where is the destination but now...

Tuesday, day after tomorrow, is my last day with them. It makes me sad. I stood in front of the class on Thursday and I told them and I felt all these emotions welling up inside of me that the other teacher had to take over for a little bit. It will be heartbreaking to go but that's life. In January, I will begin a new journey in a new school.

I don't want to think about it now, its a feeling as if I was leaving part of my little family behind. Those kids drive me absolutely nuts but they bring such smiles to my face as well. Love them.
I hope these days will be busy.