I hate waiting

I absolutely hate waiting. Especially when theres nothing I can do to influence why Im waiting. I know that people want to be in charge of everything in this world and when something is suddenly out of their hands, they feel helpless. So do I. Im used to dealing with my issues, I have been in charge of my life. But now its not the case. Something else will decide my future and theres nothing I can do to turn it in my favour so I just have to wait. Patiently. And Im not the most patient person in the world. And Im not stupid aswell. I wont go poking things to much, it may cause more harm than good to me. But I cant help wondering about it all. I keep turning things round and round in my head, looking into many different possibilities what could possibly happen if things go either this or that way. And I have to admit, its not helping me much. My brain tends to get even more tangled and I feel uneasy. I just dont seem to want to let things go for a while, to give this control to someone else. But I know very well that I have to. This time.
Maybe its because I keep thinking that I know whats best for me and I know how to achieve this. Maybe not this time. Its not up to me anymore, I can only keep on praying and hoping that my prayers get answered.
I read somewhere that its not right to ask God strenght, you rather have to ask God to help you find the way to be strong. God cant do everything for you, He can only help you to be better and stronger.
Just keep faith!