Wednesday, December 3, 2008

silence before the storm..or not?

I feel more at ease compared to the last days. I dont even want to think back to the last weeks and all the things that I had to go through. I dont know yet if they have made me a stronger person. Maybe. I feel that the worst is over now. I have done my crying and now I can take it more reasonably and just think things through without being hysterical (actually I refuse to believe that I acted like that during these few weeks passed).
One of my best friends told me one day that I am too good person and that I deserve better. And today I read somwhere online that too good people get screwed all the time! Why is that?? People can mess with us coz they know that they can get away with it???
And when I think about it..that may just be it. They mess with us coz they know we are not going to say anything or do anything to stop them, coz we are too good and think about others feeling too much.
That sucks!
And I may be pissed about this now, but well...it all comes down to the fact that I am TOO GOOD (to be true maybe :D) And I try to do the right thing, coz I tend to have this extremely active conscience. And to be honest, I hate the feeling of guilt and asking myself the question: what if...?? Coz you never know anymore...

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