Is this the end..?

Dear Void...Im totally broken now...and I have the feeling that this is the end of my life and my marriage. You know, I have told you that he has lied to me too much. Well, last night he was totally honest with me. And that broke me. I could do nothing else but cry. I havent cried that much in my life before.
And I cant do anything to fix my marriage. Thats so hard for me. That I just sit here and do nothing and watch everything fall apart. And what comes to lying, He should have come to me and tell me the truth what he was going through months ago, not now. Now He has already created a snowball effect. Like everything, the truth comes like a bigbig heap of snow and buries me.
And you know. I would like to tell him. You know, maybe we got married too soon. But thats where we are now. You are married and start acting like married man. Sometimes in life you cant do as you feel. You have to do what is right. I know that he loved me very much when he married me. I know that. But he has changed so much since we moved here. And I believe it was a grave mistake to move here. He is not the same man I married. The environment here and people here (coz all of his friends are single) have changed him. He wants to act like a single man. He doesnt want to be married, he is not ready to committ.
And He has given the love for me to Her, because she is new and interesting and...I have to be honest...all they are having is exactly how things were with me and Him in the beginning.
But sometimes you just have to do the right thing. You are married, live with it. We can fix things eventually, I believe that. Because he still loves me in a way. He just needs to accept that he is married. Because marriage is not something you throw away when you dont feel like being married anymore. Be a grown up and accept the facts. But maybe he is not grown up enough yet...