Mistake

I made a mistake. And Im not afraid to admit it. I should have had more trust in him than I did. But still, I believe that I had a valid reason for doing what I did, although I regret it now. You know the feeling of something taking over you and you cant think straight.
Im glad that things were not as I thought they were. I was already about to think that nothing has changed. I really should think more about my relationship and what he needs and what I need.
I understand his point that he needs his own space too. I totally understand and I agree. But that doesnt justify his lying to me. If theres one thing I truly hate, its lying and concealing the truth. Some people say that concealing is not lying, but I believe it is. Because its still not telling the truth. He said that he had a good reason for lying to me. Theres never a reason good enough to justify lying to the person you love.
I should start going out more often, getting my own space. I figured that since he is working long hours and he considers his colleagues as his friends, thats also getting space and time away from me. But as it comes out now, He needs his space and when Im there, its not relaxing and he cant unwind. But in that case, he better choose good ways of relaxing, not the ones he has chosen so far....