Silence

I dont know what to think. You know the decision that my husband has to make. He has to choose between ME - wife, known more than 2 years, knows me, I love him, our families are bonded and etc. and theres HER - known for 4 months, isnt sure about her feelings, doesnt like her attitude, doesnt know her, isnt sure about his feelings about her, isnt sure about their future and so on.
Thats exactly the choice he has to make. You might say that its pretty obvious who is He going to pick. Im not sure about anything. I asked him that do you think there is a future for you and her even if you get rid of me by divorce? Because he has to leave the country when he divorces me and go back home to Pakistan. I asked him that is He sure that She will follow him to Pakistan? He said that no, he is not sure. If I was in that situation, I wouldnt think twice. I wouldnt in a world lay my marriage on a line for something 50/50 situation. There is no win-win situation here. He has to think about gain and loss from both sides. Is he going to gain more than hes going to lose when he leaves me? I think he will lose more than there is to gain.
I had a long conversation in msn with her yesterday where She said that She can find another man and fall in love again after being sad for a while, but I cant walk away that easily.... She sounds sincere when I talk with her, we are both women and we think alike. But I cant fully trust her, because her mind is like a wind, it can change in a minute, She has shown it to me and Him on so many occasions...I just dont know...
And I know that I can go on and on with my ranting (although Im not angry or anything) but Im just too tired of this all. I wish He would end it soon, no matter what.

And one very good news, My Buddy Butch contacted me yesterday and I called on that number again and he answered :) and we talked almost 45 minutes, I would have talked more, but I had a piano lesson coming on with one little boy. It really felt soooo good to talk with him, like good old times....and I hope that I get to talk with him really soon again.. I wonder when is his next day off...??