Just one month left...

Exactly. Just one month left til I graduate university. Then one big period of my life will be over. Its like a step into an adulthood because until you study something, you are in a way still considered to be a child. Of course I will always be a child for my parents, but thats not what I ment. I want to be on my own so much. I want to have my own home with all those things I want to have in there. I know that in the beginning theres not going to be that much in my home, but all the things that would be there, they would be mine and have meaning to me. I want to be the mistress of the house:P Because when you have your own home, you also have a big responsibility and Im not afraid of that. I had that for a year when I lived in Ireland and we did just fine. We managed everything. I just feel that my life hasnt truly started yet as long as I still live under the same roof with my parents. I love them very much, but I want to have my own little home.
You know how they say that always expect the unexpected. And they also say that when you dont have high hopes and expectations, you dont get disappointed. But its totally impossible for me to live like this, that I have no expectations at all. What comes to my close ones, of course I have hopes. And I dont like the feeling when people abandon me. You may be busy and have crazy times but when I see u abandon me, then I get pissed. Coz I havent done anything to deserve it. And then I abandon you right back. I have learned one thing, if you havent got that close to me (yet) then if you mistreat me, I turn my back and leave. I have been steadily learning my worth. I know what Im worth and if you dont appreciate it, you just have to be without me. Call me cocky, call me emotionless, but thats just the no shit attitude that I gotta have sometimes.