Today was in a way a harsh day for me. In addition to the lunchtime meeting, I had to protocol it. I have never done that and I was all the time like...am I supposed to type it down or not?
But besides that..I was little ( and still am) under the weather. I just had such a low body temperature - 33,6 in Celsius (92,4 for people feeling more comfortable in Fahrenheit scale). Every quicker move I made (and I was making them alot since I started with my Christmas prep for parties at work that included new dances) made my head spin so bad. So I came home and have been watching my favourite youtube channels since then.
You know something, Dear Void..Im really tired of being alone. Well...I am not REALLY alone...because I do have someone whos really dear to me... But I ment more like..someone whos actually with me. Physically. No, Void, I dont mean that kind of physical ways... I want to...actually share my life with somebody.
I read somewhere that people mostly want that so they would have someone who is a witness to their lives. So their life wouldnt go un-noticed. In a way I understand that way of thinking. Nobody wants to be invisible, we all want to be noticed and acknowledged. I just want to have someone around...someone who really cares and someone who respects me...someone I can come home to..or that someone can come home to me. But I better stop before I reach the point I start talking about cuddling and falling asleep in someones arms, dont let me turn into a real crybaby, my dear Void.
I just sit here. Its all so quiet. Just listening the sounds of rain outside. I dont really know how to describe what Im feeling, how to unwrap it what Im feeling inside. I do feel peace in me...but theres still something bubbling and boiling underneath that calm surface. Something I cannot give a name to...
I add a little picture as a thanks to Ali for sharing his shalwar-kameez
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