Forever alone?

I dont really have a clear plan on what to write here today. I just feel inside that I should, that I need to get some things out of my system.

I was listening some music just little while ago (I dont know why I sense myself and my life through music all the time) and I remembered a conversation I had last evening with one of my dear friends. We started talking about time and it came out that we have known eachother for almost 10 years. And we also talked about change, how much we have changed over the time and I said that I cant really say specificly about myself because I cant be objective in this, observing myself from afar. And he said that he likes me more now than he did 10 years ago. I guess that was a big compliment. Thank you.

And this morning, listening those songs, really silly romantic songs, I started to think that I think I have changed over the years but deep down inside, in my heart, Im still a hopeless romantic. Which is really out of place in nowadays world. Its like being endangered species. That somehow makes me feel that Im destined to eventually end up alone only because the norms I apply to myself dont apply to other people. For example, if Im being honest with people, completely out in the open, how can I ever be sure that they are doing the same? I actually have no idea why more and more people decide to go down the road of deceit instead of just being honest with the others.Who would actually benefit from deceit? Nobody. And no true relationship can start with a lie. I dont understand why people prefer to make themselves "better" with concealing the truth and hiding or just by telling plain bs. Because its not really better. And if you plan to stay in someones life, dont you think that your web of lies will come out one day? But then its the other case, then it just hurts like hell and creates a real snowball effect. The other person who got hurt will find it much harder to trust again without having the need to look over his shoulder all the time.

And as much as I tell people that I want them to be honest no matter what, they still somehow think that its ok to conceal and lie.Whats wrong with people? Just get over yourselves and be real. I would anytime have someone not like me because of who I am than love me for someone Im not.