Leap into the unknown.

My Dear Void.
It may seem that I have completely forgotten you but thats not true. I very often talk to you in my head and want to write down my thoughts but I simply doesnt find a moment to sit down, breathe and take my time to voice whats in my head.
Nowadays all that life seems to be is a circle that spinning faster and faster and I don't have a way to slow it down. I remember that years ago, life didn't seem to revolve only about work and home. I had time to do all the other things that I really enjoyed but now...its like I have become a hamster in a wheel that going round and round and there's no way out. I have to keep up with that wheel or I will be thrown off by the pure strength of the centripetal force.
One stage of my life is ending. I'm setting off sails into the unknown. I have stayed in my workplace for 2 and a half years and I'm taking on a new challenge as a teacher in school.
There times when I feel absolutely petrified about this. There are times when I'm excited, nervous, joyful, anxious, the whole kaleidoscope of emotions. I am overwhelmed. I know that this is something I have to do, to take that next step towards personal growth, to spread my wings but I am terrified. I had my induction yesterday with all the other teachers in that agency who have already taught in this position. It didn't make me feel any better about this whole situation. If anything, it made me feel even more overwhelmed. I felt like the odd one out because I have no experience what so ever teaching in schools here. I know deep in my heart that I will be fine. I will take my time to settle but ultimately I will be alright. It is like my mum said the other day that she knows that I will be fine no matter what because I am a fighter. I may not look like one, but I am.
I will say my goodbyes to my children in the nursery next week and I have a week to breathe before I head out to the choppy waters of schools. I guess that can be compared to a ship that's sailing out of the safe port, not knowing what lies ahead behind the horizon.

Wish me luck my Dear Void and wish me strength, both physical and emotional.
God willing, I will rise up and plough through whatever comes my way with my head held high and smile on my face.