After Christmas...

You know, Dear Void, I have decided something. I decided that if I want to be happy with what I've got and with who I've got at the moment, I have to make a closure about certain things in my life. I have to start trusting again. I know its not easy for me to do, but at least I have to try, I have to give Him a chance to prove himself again. And with that I also have to take the risk of getting hurt again. I sincerely hope that this does not ever happen.
I have to try to put the negative emotions behind me and focus on the positive what I got at the moment. And knowing my over-active imagination and conscious, thats not an easy task for me at all.
Yesterday I was singing in one church concert and suddenly I felt peace flowing into me. I realized that if I want to be happy and if I want to see things going for the better, I have to let things go, all those hurtful things that used to tear me apart, I have to let them go. (and hope that history doesnt repeat itself). but I have to take that chance.
With his help and love, i know that Im able to put things behind me, eventually...