Through hell and back

My Dear Void. Here I am once again. I felt like I have abandoned you for all these months that seem like eternity. So much has happened since I last spoke to you. I have been through hell and back, purged my soul in the inferno and come out alive and stronger. I have done things I'm not proud of and these are the things I want to bury in my past forever. My biggest regret is that I didn't do this journey through hell alone, I dragged someone with me, someone I love the most. I hurt him and I admire his strength and resolve to forgive me. I'm so grateful and I feel blessed to have him in my life.

I remember that I said last time that I'm too old to have my life in a constant change. I still feel that way. But there is really nothing I can do about it. Life is as unpredictable as weather here in England. Maybe that's it, if life gives you lemons, make lemonade.
I really wish for stability in my life and I'm slowly getting there. I have a job that I really enjoy, finally working with children again, I have nice place to live and I share it with someone really special.

It's the first time I write this all on my phone, so forgive me my possible typos. My computer is not working properly and even if it did, I don't have internet at home, just in my phone so I have to make due with that.

I feel strangely relieved now after talking to you. It's like opening a window early in the morning and taking those first breaths of cool air and feeling it cleansing you and giving you a lift.
I will be back soon. Really soon!