Strict weekend

 My dear Void,

This weekend I have completely grabbed the bull by the horns. What exactly do I mean by that? Well, let me tell you.

Amongst of all the good things that have happened to me because of the diabetes program, I have come across a big struggle.

Something happened that I simply couldn't  explain - my daily blood sugar readings started to creep up again and considerably over the safe limit. I can't express how shocked I was because I have been doing everything, absolutely everything by the book. I racked my brains thinking where did I go wrong. I still don't know.

So my only and best strategy was to strip everything down and be completely strict with myself. I started marking everything down when and what I ate. I stopped snacking in between the meals. One of the most important thing, considering eating, is to let myself feel the hunger - not eating until I actually feel that my stomach is empty and I need food.(I read a really good article about modern day lifestyle and how it is affecting our eating).

I feel that I have been successful the past 2 days. These heightened readings really shocked me to my core, I don't want to go back to taking medication. I want to fully be able to control my condition with my lifestyle and eating behaviour.

And to be honest my dear Void, it's easy to stop eating if you know that you might hurt yourself, hurt your health if you continue. 

I feel myself moving further and further away from comfort eating and closer to conscious eating. And as usual I've had to learn the hard way.